Sunday, August 19, 2012

If you cant stop time, let it pass.

If Time is not itself a problem, than mostly it is a solution. There is a principle in this world; Every question has an answere. No matter what question arises on the road to death, you have to have the answere for it in your mind. If not; every one can search it inside their souls. And they must find the answeres to all those questions they are going to face, in order to justify their every step and their whole life and make the heart be in peace. Couple of years ago, i was faced by one such question. And it was an obsessing one. It was a question that never gave me enough room to find the answere for it. Nor i was left with enough strength to go in search of the answere. The question was, 'Why i dont wana commit suicide?'. Everyone of us have the answere for this questions. And even more than one answeres. i had no answere for this question! No one by my side! Nothing helpful! Nothing hopeful! Faithless and helpless! I spent 2 years in this state. I spent this time alone.Didnt bother to find about friends. For that they couldnt help me. No one to advice. The new people i met during that time, i tried to seek their help, just to be seen as a wondering, pointless, and aimless guy. I went for the things that matter not for anyone else. I kept gripping the thoughts that were profoundly attributed to my dreams. I seeked the aproval of GOD. He didnt answered. But he did gave me a sign, but nothing more helpful. I tried everything in my aimlessness but actually i never had an answere to the question that was always there in my mind. Then what helped me out? It was 'Me. I, my self' Neither i had the hope, nor enough courage to take any sort of risk. But i was realy very well aware that i cant stop the days. So i just let them pass; Doing what i thougth to be a part of my dream, what i thougth would get me closer to the answere of that question. With the time my obsession was tranformed into enthusiasm. And as i kept acumulating the enthusiasm it made my aim vivid in front of my eyes. And as i kept wathing my aim it brougth the light of hope glimmering in my eyes. I my soul felt the peace of satisfaction. When i got the answer why i dont wana commit suicide. So it was all the coustesy of time. The courtesy of those two year where i learned how to discover the answere for the question. Time was the real solution.